The Biggest Decision I Ever Made by Pamela S. Thibodeaux @psthib

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I’d like to welcome award-winning author, Pamela S. Thibodeaux, sharing a time when she was at a difficult crossroads in her life. I’m sure you will be inspired by her journey. Pamela is the co-founder and a lifetime member of Bayou Writers Group. Multi-published in romantic fiction as well as creative non-fiction, she has had her writing tagged as, “Inspirational with an Edge!”™ and reviewed as “steamier and grittier than the typical Christian novel without decreasing the message.”

“If you don’t change the status quo, you’re not going to get through this.”

In life as in writing there is a catalyst (word, incident or situation) that prompts the hero or heroine to action which then leads them into the drama of the story. Those words were mine. The statement rattled around in my brain, echoed in my heart, and resonated with my soul for weeks. Maybe months. Not sure really. That time in my life is still a blur. But they were the impetus that led to the biggest decision I’ve ever made.

August 18, 2009 my husband had a massive heart attack and died. Four years prior he suffered congestive heart failure at which time he informed me he would die when he was fifty-six. Of course being the strong Christian I am, I rebuked that idea. Begged and pleaded with God to not let that prophecy come true. “I don’t care if you take him the day he turns 57,” I insisted.

But I knew. We both knew. And no matter how I tried to change the situation, God’s appointed time to take him home would not be thwarted.
The next several weeks would continue to be a blur for me. I resumed my normal daily routine, striving to make sense of it all.

“If God brings you to it, He’ll bring you through it.”

I believed and yet, I had no clue what to do next. Sometimes I still don’t. But that’s not what this piece is about.

For more years than I can count I wanted to stay home and write. This desire was one of two illusive dreams in my heart. Although my husband’s death brought agony beyond description, it also opened doors that were previously shut. My house was paid for, the title to my car free and clear. Maybe, just maybe I could work out a way to pursue this dream. After all, the desire to be a stay-home wife & mother had eluded me my entire life. If I can put as much passion and energy into my writing as I did my marriage…..

Still I hesitated.

Should I take the chance and go into debt to do this? The house is paid for, why on earth would anyone in their right mind take out a loan with no guarantee of income to pay it back?

But I wasn’t in my right mind.

My emotions were in turmoil, and my daily routine became a rut with no meaning or purpose. So I prayed and I sought council with those who knew me inside and out, one of which spoke those wise, life-changing words.

“I’m not going to tell you what to do, but I will tell you this much… If you don’t change the status quo, you’re not going to get through this.”

So I took out a home equity line of credit then quit my job. Worst case scenario I could always go back to the corporate world. After all, the note is lower than most house (or rent) payments.

Heck, I can pick up cans or wait tables and earn that much!

My life is not exactly as I envisioned it would be back when I made this decision. Little did I know I would be emotionally incapable of writing for quite some time. However, I have come a long way since that period in my life where doubt, fear, and grief permeated every thought, decision, and action.

I still have a long way to go before I see the end result of that choice. But looking back I see how right my friend was, and how much those words encouraged me to step out in faith and do what God has called me to do.

Stay home and write.

Every time fear of failure tempts me to go back to Egypt (a “real” job and “normal” routine) I remember that Jesus came that we may have life and have it in abundance.

Terry died that I might have the same.

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Tempered Joy: All around rodeo cowboy and heir to the Rockin’ H Ranch, Ace Harris is determined not to fall in love. He’s only loved one woman in his life, his mother, and no one can even come close to filling her boots. Lexie Morgan thinks rodeo cowboys have rocks for brains and a death wish for a soul. A broken childhood and the death of her father and best friend leave her doubting and questioning God (despite her years of religious upbringing) and afraid of love. Can two young people who clash from the onset learn to trust in the healing power of God and find love and happiness amidst tragedy and grief?

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  1. Thank you so much Stacy for having me on your blog today!
    God Bless you!
    PamT

  2. Thanks so much for sharing your touching crossroads piece, Pam! It’s always a pleasure to have you here.

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